"Adulting"

Well, today will be my first day staying at Matt's that isn't because we watched a late movie, or something of the sort. I'm actually staying here staying here. It's weird telling my parents that, and I honestly about cried when my dad told me to "not mess it up." I don't even know why I got into my feelings. I guess because I haven't actually moved in with someone in a really long time, and it's a little bit terrifying still. We're looking at buying houses, but it's a little bit different when no part of this is actually *my* place, and at any time he could change his mind. We ate at my parents today, and my cats have seemed to have been adjusting well, which is good. One of his cats seems to be doing good with it, but the other one not so much. it's still really surreal leaving my parents house where I've been the past 2 years because it seems like that became part of my identity, and when I'd met Matt, felt like that I had ...

It's been nearly a full year since I've written anything on this blog, even though I titled it "adulting" I was far from actually adulting. I accepted a job at a place that I shouldn't have at the end of 2018. It was something that I did because I wanted to get out of the current position that I was in, and I just wanted any way out of it, ASAP. It only caused me stress and heartache, and I feel like I have to constantly update everything on here LOL. I was keeping a paper journal for awhile, but that's when I was at my parent's house, and the only person that ever walked into my bedroom was me. Maybe someday I'll end up putting them somewhere else from what I wrote on those papers, but we'll see. It does help, more mentally, to be able to write my feelings and what is currently on my mind. Which I don't feel like I'm able to get out in other ways, because I'm not the best with my words typically. Anyway... I officially (but not...